trinkets

Currently, I am understanding more and more that the goal of my life is about intimacy with Jesus. It is Jesus; nothing more than that. So, I long to make Jesus the focal point of my life with all other things being an outflow of that relationship.

And when I’m in his presence there is no cause for hurry because when I am with him, his timing his perfect and he is faithful. Jesus has promised to finish everything he started by in me and in the world.

It is about following Jesus. It’s always been about Jesus, nothing more. I have discovered it is simpler than I once thought. Once I realized that all Jesus wanted was me and not what I could do for him, I became free to love him.

Frustrated with myself, I thought of my past years spent trying to give God what he already had; or perhaps even unintentionally, trying in some hidden way, to impress him. My life felt like it had been spent trying to offer water to a fish that existed in the depths of the ocean’s infinite waters.

I wonder how many of us, who are believers, spend our time and energy trying to impress God with our trinkets and offerings.

To think that Jesus needs me or is dependent on me…that’s crazy talk. Or if the reason He created me was because he needed me to do something for him…

If that were so, it would be the same as if I said the reason my wife and I had kids was because we needed help around the house with chores. For one, it’s hard as hell to get teenagers to do chores. God would probably say the same thing about me if he were depending on me to be faithful or reliable…if he was in need of me to do his “Christian” chores.

God did not create me for what I can do for him.

God created me to be uniquely me.

God created me for relationship. Me and God. Period.

…and he loves me deeply for who I am and not what I do.